5-15 Find a better project
You ask, “What is the spiritual formula, what is the chant or dance or drumbeat to dissolve this spider web?" And to this we say, There is no spiderweb.
Your attention to anything makes it real to you and whatever you will study will be your way. It will develop substance and by your attention to it, it will shape your life.
And are you here? We are here with you. And you are returning to sit with us after several days and in this sitting, we are reflowing/reorganizing your heart energy and working on aligning the two sides - right and left - of your body.
You experience this as a pulsing in your right hand and then in your left hand; and we are showing you that this is, in fact, a spiraling flow, which moves around you and within you becoming more into your perception though it has always been here, is always here.
For several days, Amy has felt a pressure, a pulling, even slight pain on the left side of the chest/heart area. She has felt concern for her heart and she has placed her hand over her heart and has spoken with it, reassuringly. A good and loving thing to do.
And we are working with you now and you are having trouble hearing us, discerning our message from the stream, from the wholeness of the flow. And we understand and we are not impatient with you. Your concern about our impatience is clouding your relationship to us and to our message. Our message is timeless and so are we, and we do not need you to hurry and we do not mind waiting. In fact, we do not ‘mind’ anything. [The guides are laughing] For we do not share the concerns of mind, with which then people of your earth time struggle.
The guides show me the image of a person caught inside of a spiderweb of their own thoughts. How frightening and exhausting this looks. I see how struggling against the spiderweb only makes it cling to their clothing. The person is asking, “But how can we get out of this web? How might we get rid of it - or dissolve it?”
The guides respond:
You ask, “What is the spiritual formula, what is the chant or dance or drumbeat to dissolve this spiderweb? How can we chase it back into the dark night?”
And to this, we say: There is no spiderweb.
It is only your attention to the spiderweb that makes it real - and though it only seems real, you spend your days fighting it, studying it, figuring out its ways. And so we invite you now: Turn your attention away from the spiderweb and onto other things.
The more that you argue with your thoughts, the more your thoughts will argue back. The more you ask: How does this spiderweb work? the more the illusion that you’ve named ‘spiderweb’ will develop itself. It will engage with you, explain itself to you. It will become your project and you will devote yourself to understanding the spiderweb from every possible angle.
And oh, we would invite you now to find a better project. For all of this world invites your attention and whatever you make a study of will engage with you in this way.
Name the project that engages joy. Why not? You are the Namer. You are the Maker. You are the Project-Chooser.
By this we mean to say that you, dear one, are the one who ‘projects’ that which you are—that which you live from. You project your attention onto it and it becomes your project.
From inspiration to idea, from idea to concept, from concept to study, to endeavor, to career. Your attention to anything makes it real to you and whatever you will study will be your way. It will develop substance and by your attention to it, it will shape your life.
And so, while you may choose to be a student of spiderwebs and then a teacher of spiderwebs and how they are woven and of what they are made, you don’t have to be. You are free to choose your pursuit; free to choose your way of study; and to flow your attention along that way and in so doing to become that student, that teacher, that expert. To make of that project, a life.
You are the project. Everything you’ve done, been, said has led you here. It’s all one project. It’s all for you. When you see the principle on which the world of love is laid - and made - there is no mystery. You are the gift and the one who delivers the gift and the one who receives it. There is only the gift.
There is only one project. There is only the gift.
We are showing Amy the image of two houses. Imagine that each house is a project. Imagine that as you involve yourself with a project you are choosing to enter its house.
One house is full of spiderwebs. Inside of that house are those who are interested in paying attention to spiderwebs.
In the other house, who knows? Who knows what is in any house unless one is willing to enter it and look around, willing to pull open its drawers and become curious about their contents?
And now we are showing Amy a village of houses covering mile after mile, a vast settlement of houses, all bustling with activity. People enter and exit, exploring this house and that. And as they enter a house, they encounter others inside.
Inside of each house there are new pathways to explore, hallways from room to room, sliding doors opening onto terraces and decks; there are new plumbing fixtures to discover, and new room shapes and spaces. There are also new people in each new house with new possibilities and new projects to constellate. All of which emerge from new combinations of personality and temperament. These people sit together and perform activity together - talking, eating, dreaming, sleeping, washing up.
And now we are widening the view, including more houses - and more. There are so many houses, and now we are including another village. There are many other villages.
In truth, there is no end to the number of houses and villages and ways to live. In truth, there are an infinite number of houses. There are infinite possibilities and infinite homes to inhabit - and infinite others to engage with.
And we say: This is how it is, dear ones. This is the way of your world. Infinite houses. Infinite combinations of beings in proximity to one another. Infinite ways to live.
Imagine that you begin now.
See yourself flow from one house to another - and in one house, you encounter new scents, new spices, and in another you encounter new ways of covering furniture, new fabrics, new colors. And in one house, you witness new constellations of beings and new ideas and new ways of sharing them, new languages.
Each house offers something. Each passage through leaves a layer of memory, knowledge and experience clinging to your sleeve, clinging to your heart, to your mind like spider-silk.
Yet you need not linger anywhere that does not offer joy. Follow your attention to the house where joy lives. The house where lightness beckons. This doorway, this castle, this city street, paved with cobblestones; where there will always be someone, always something to engage with on your way.
Follow joy to the house of your choice. If joy is not here. Become the joy that’s missing.
As ever, I am grateful for your interest in this work.
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