Your writing is just so beautiful. I was able to relate to the sobbing for my first childhood years… then I learned to hold it all in until a few years ago… then I was a gushing sobber.
Powerful essay. I kind of miss sobbing. It doesnt happen all that much because I've gone kind of numb as a way to cope with trauma. Last time I howled and wailed was when my best friend died. Yes...I have cried quite a few times over him. Tears mean youre sensitive, that youre in touch with precious emotions. I need to get back to that. Oh, and fun random fact: I once found Leonard Lopate's wallet in a movie theater in The Village! I wanted to meet him but I dont think he was around so I just brought it to his office.
I’m sorry for your loss. That’s a big hurt. And I hear you about the numbness. The tears. They come back when the feelings come back and start to move. The tears move them through and out. For me, the numb came with the grief. It’s almost a kind of padding.
wow. powerful writing. I cried a lot too when I was a child. I sense that your circumstances were much more difficult than mine - but I can relate to the tears replacing the anger. It was less dangerous...
It's funny you say that . . . In truth, my circumstances weren't difficult. Not in a scary, threatening way. We always had what we needed. This is emotional, somatic experience Im reporting from. I think that I am capturing how it felt to be 10 years old. It's hard to convey that internal drama without giving the impression of grave circumstances. I was a very sensitive child and felt things deeply. I am still sorting how to report that without alarming evryone. But also, how to tell the truth about what was hard without oversoftening it,
Your writing is just so beautiful. I was able to relate to the sobbing for my first childhood years… then I learned to hold it all in until a few years ago… then I was a gushing sobber.
Thank you for sharing this Amy. ❤️
Thank you. From one former ‘gushing sobber’ to another. xxoo
Powerful essay. I kind of miss sobbing. It doesnt happen all that much because I've gone kind of numb as a way to cope with trauma. Last time I howled and wailed was when my best friend died. Yes...I have cried quite a few times over him. Tears mean youre sensitive, that youre in touch with precious emotions. I need to get back to that. Oh, and fun random fact: I once found Leonard Lopate's wallet in a movie theater in The Village! I wanted to meet him but I dont think he was around so I just brought it to his office.
I’m sorry for your loss. That’s a big hurt. And I hear you about the numbness. The tears. They come back when the feelings come back and start to move. The tears move them through and out. For me, the numb came with the grief. It’s almost a kind of padding.
wow. powerful writing. I cried a lot too when I was a child. I sense that your circumstances were much more difficult than mine - but I can relate to the tears replacing the anger. It was less dangerous...
It's funny you say that . . . In truth, my circumstances weren't difficult. Not in a scary, threatening way. We always had what we needed. This is emotional, somatic experience Im reporting from. I think that I am capturing how it felt to be 10 years old. It's hard to convey that internal drama without giving the impression of grave circumstances. I was a very sensitive child and felt things deeply. I am still sorting how to report that without alarming evryone. But also, how to tell the truth about what was hard without oversoftening it,
:)