Wow, another kindred spirit! So glad to find you, via a recommendation from another blog I subscribe to. This post describes me to a tee. I started watching Severance and will have to get back to it. Yes, I've been silencing myself, hiding, from a fear of being too much. So many of us are feeling these things you describe and coming to these very realizations. I also felt I was on this Earth at this time to help usher in the new dispensation, but of all the various parts of this lifelong journey and the many selves I have encompassed within the Self, I think now is the most important time of all.
I have gazed with dismay often on the stories people are telling and reinforcing to themselves and each other about what is really going on here, and the fingers of blame so many seem to be pointing at each other, without realizing their own part in this glorious mess we've all made. Ah, well, more on that sometime.
Thank you, thank you, thank you for your courage in letting your innie out to play with your outie and for encouraging us all to do the same!
So nice to meet you. I take heart when I hear from people who, like you, are able to witness what's happening without getting sucked into it. That's the work and the medicine, isn't it? That's why we're here. To witness. To name it. To live in the world outside of its tidal pull. The world of love and blessing.
Thank you for the spoiler alerts (the SERIOUSLY spoiler alert) made me laugh. I won't read on because I think we will watch the show and such but I wanted to tell you it was hard to stop reading your writing and there is no soft click coming from this direction! big love!
Laughing. You could read the rest of the post, if you want to. It's safe down there. Under the swan picture. Just that top bit (VERY dangerous . . . for the uninitiated.)
So much gratitude to you for writing this post. I think you’ve helped me understand more about the people around me (and in the world) who don’t “seem” to be affected by everything that’s going on…
Last week, my “boss” (who may be more like an Outie than an Innie — I haven’t yet watched Severance so I’m not sure), said something that kind of floored me. She said that it seems like I feel things more deeply in my body than a lot of people. The way she described me made me feel seen (by someone who isn’t as sensitive as I am) more than I ever have been before…and I’m 42.
Maybe we are entering a new time…it feels like an immense birthing, with plenty of fire.
First, (heart emoji, I can't figure out how to make one without my phone.)
Second, wow - that observation from your boss. No wonder it floored you. I think we don;t realize what it takes for people to cross the boundary between what we've been conditioned to believe is 'professional distance' and speak the invisible (but oh, so apparent) things out loud. That's what she did there. She reached across that barrier.
I remember when a colleague of mine did this - we'd been associates for six years and suddenly, she let me see who she really was: a woman who studied the mysteries of her own Catholic tradition, followed the "Nuns on the Bus", read books about the Black Madonna and Mary Magdalene. She was a badass mystic. A veil fell between us and we were able to speak to one another in a completely new way. Though looking back, I see how when we were in the office, we sort of spoke in code.
PS You do feel things deeply. We are entering a new time. I love you, too. :)
PPSS I don't think ANYONE can explain the difference between an outie and an innie but, essentially - they are two complete human personalities inside of one body.
in the show, the outie is the one who made the decision to sever. They are deeply emotional people who couldn't cope with the pain of grief or failure or loneliness - and so, for part of the day, they turn off the part of themselves that remembers that pain - and all associations with the people and memories that caused it.
In the morning, the outie wakes up and goes to Lumon, where, in the elevator, they become the innie - forgetting everything for the whole day until, in the evening, they get back in the elevator and become the outie.
An innie is kind of blank (at the beginning) but inside the building, innies begin to develop their own emotional and egoic life. The show is a trip - it's disturbing but also kind of tender and beautiful. (And it could never have existed before psychotherapy.)
Amy, I have been in your circle for how many years? Maybe 12, 15? And this piece has impacted me in a completely different way- literally an inside-outside way. I’ll be re-reading these words for a long time. Your message rings true and it sends gentle acknowledgment of how I feel. Deepest gratitude for sharing it all. Reflecting back to you the love and care you have given me. 💗
And I want to add something, Jan. Reading your comment again this morning - so it doesn't go unsaid. Your presence has added so much to all of our circles. And to my life. The love and care that you've given me is also a gift. One that I cherish.
Yes, you and I have traveled together a good long time. You've seen every iteration of this work. I'm receiving what you wrote - that this message today touched your heart in a new, inside-outside way. I feel that. And I know that it's real - and I think it's because writing it, I could feel the 'new' moving in me and pouring into the work. Just as, across its metaphors, it reached you. Big big love, my friend. xxoo
Wow, another kindred spirit! So glad to find you, via a recommendation from another blog I subscribe to. This post describes me to a tee. I started watching Severance and will have to get back to it. Yes, I've been silencing myself, hiding, from a fear of being too much. So many of us are feeling these things you describe and coming to these very realizations. I also felt I was on this Earth at this time to help usher in the new dispensation, but of all the various parts of this lifelong journey and the many selves I have encompassed within the Self, I think now is the most important time of all.
I have gazed with dismay often on the stories people are telling and reinforcing to themselves and each other about what is really going on here, and the fingers of blame so many seem to be pointing at each other, without realizing their own part in this glorious mess we've all made. Ah, well, more on that sometime.
Thank you, thank you, thank you for your courage in letting your innie out to play with your outie and for encouraging us all to do the same!
Oh my goodness! Hello, kindred spirit. :)
So nice to meet you. I take heart when I hear from people who, like you, are able to witness what's happening without getting sucked into it. That's the work and the medicine, isn't it? That's why we're here. To witness. To name it. To live in the world outside of its tidal pull. The world of love and blessing.
Thank you for the spoiler alerts (the SERIOUSLY spoiler alert) made me laugh. I won't read on because I think we will watch the show and such but I wanted to tell you it was hard to stop reading your writing and there is no soft click coming from this direction! big love!
Laughing. You could read the rest of the post, if you want to. It's safe down there. Under the swan picture. Just that top bit (VERY dangerous . . . for the uninitiated.)
hahahaha take a left at the swan! Ok! on it!
I ALWAYS want to hear from you. :)
So much gratitude to you for writing this post. I think you’ve helped me understand more about the people around me (and in the world) who don’t “seem” to be affected by everything that’s going on…
Last week, my “boss” (who may be more like an Outie than an Innie — I haven’t yet watched Severance so I’m not sure), said something that kind of floored me. She said that it seems like I feel things more deeply in my body than a lot of people. The way she described me made me feel seen (by someone who isn’t as sensitive as I am) more than I ever have been before…and I’m 42.
Maybe we are entering a new time…it feels like an immense birthing, with plenty of fire.
I love you!!
First, (heart emoji, I can't figure out how to make one without my phone.)
Second, wow - that observation from your boss. No wonder it floored you. I think we don;t realize what it takes for people to cross the boundary between what we've been conditioned to believe is 'professional distance' and speak the invisible (but oh, so apparent) things out loud. That's what she did there. She reached across that barrier.
I remember when a colleague of mine did this - we'd been associates for six years and suddenly, she let me see who she really was: a woman who studied the mysteries of her own Catholic tradition, followed the "Nuns on the Bus", read books about the Black Madonna and Mary Magdalene. She was a badass mystic. A veil fell between us and we were able to speak to one another in a completely new way. Though looking back, I see how when we were in the office, we sort of spoke in code.
PS You do feel things deeply. We are entering a new time. I love you, too. :)
PPSS I don't think ANYONE can explain the difference between an outie and an innie but, essentially - they are two complete human personalities inside of one body.
in the show, the outie is the one who made the decision to sever. They are deeply emotional people who couldn't cope with the pain of grief or failure or loneliness - and so, for part of the day, they turn off the part of themselves that remembers that pain - and all associations with the people and memories that caused it.
In the morning, the outie wakes up and goes to Lumon, where, in the elevator, they become the innie - forgetting everything for the whole day until, in the evening, they get back in the elevator and become the outie.
An innie is kind of blank (at the beginning) but inside the building, innies begin to develop their own emotional and egoic life. The show is a trip - it's disturbing but also kind of tender and beautiful. (And it could never have existed before psychotherapy.)
Beautiful. Thank you.
Thank you, Patricia. For reading it - for leaving a note. :)
Amy, I have been in your circle for how many years? Maybe 12, 15? And this piece has impacted me in a completely different way- literally an inside-outside way. I’ll be re-reading these words for a long time. Your message rings true and it sends gentle acknowledgment of how I feel. Deepest gratitude for sharing it all. Reflecting back to you the love and care you have given me. 💗
And I want to add something, Jan. Reading your comment again this morning - so it doesn't go unsaid. Your presence has added so much to all of our circles. And to my life. The love and care that you've given me is also a gift. One that I cherish.
Yes, you and I have traveled together a good long time. You've seen every iteration of this work. I'm receiving what you wrote - that this message today touched your heart in a new, inside-outside way. I feel that. And I know that it's real - and I think it's because writing it, I could feel the 'new' moving in me and pouring into the work. Just as, across its metaphors, it reached you. Big big love, my friend. xxoo
YES.
Yes. And I am just reading your remarkable— and remarkably aligned with this- post. I think we pressed send at the same moment.
Innies & Outies - I knew exactly what you meant just from the title 💫