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Nov 29, 2021Liked by Amy Oscar

Thank you, this really resonates with me. As I am becoming more attuned to the light and shadow side of all aspects of the sphere in which I dwell; I sense myself sifting the truth from a story, belief or practice that roots in commercialism but portrays as a gift, support or resource for the benefit of all. I am feeling quite adrift in doing so; truth, once known and seen cannot be unknown and unseen, and I don’t quite know how to navigate as a creator vs as a reactor. What you have described feels akin to keeping a clue journal; something in which I can document shining words and moments/experiences through which a more truth-full, elevated perspective will unfold as the ‘seemingly unrelated’ dots connect over time. I do this with my journalling, pull out shining words and phrases at the end of each week or month and see what message illumines as a result. I feel you have provided me a means to find mooring in that which feels so big, as I feel so small. I am so grateful for your love and sharing xx

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I am grateful for your love and sharing, too.

I wanted to respond to what you wrote here. That you "don’t quite know how to navigate as a creator vs as a reactor." I think this is the heart of all spiritual work (and play). To me, the distinction has to do with which world I am standing in when I respond to what is here before me.

As a creator, I am curious. I am open to being moved, touched, changed.

As a reactor, I am afraid that what is here with me may threaten something I am trying to keep from changing.

As a creator, I am present and engaged.

As a reactor, I am dreaming of a better future or worrying about a future threat.

As a creator, I am here and all that I encounter it blessed.

As a reactor, I am wishing I was somewhere else, that something here was different.

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Nov 30, 2021Liked by Amy Oscar

This is so true. As in the words themselves, it comes down to where I place the 'c/see'; from locked within whatever is here (reaCtor), or out front in the lead - a more elevated and present perspective (Creator). I am here, and all that I encounter is blessed; this is how I am moving through this day. And if I forget and slip into the habit of wishing and worry; I shall simply start again, here, blessed.

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Wow! Sally that is brilliant. It's almost the same word except for the placement of that C. Mind blown.

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